"Sinking"

This song came to mind the last couple days. Can you just hear the suspicion and cynicism dripping from the words? But this person is hurt and desperately alone. The proud words of defiance are like iron walls, shutting everyone and everything out. They contrast harshly with the fear that has the person in in its grip. This person could be far from God or just struggling in their Christian walk. It doesn't matter. Both can adopt this attitude. God has both hands open in front of them with nothing to hide, but they eye Him darkly and crouch... ready to run at any sign of trouble. Rashly considering whether or not they should just brush off His love.

Sinking -- Jars of Clay

It's not my problem anymore
You see it never really was
So you can stop 'caring' as you call it
and I'll be fine right here
You see that I can play a pretty convincing role
So I don't need you, I don't think I need you

But you see through my forever lies
And you are not believing
And I see in your forever eyes
That you are forever healing

You can't hear what I'm not saying
And I can hold out long enough
Treading water I keep from sinking
I'm not one for reaching
You see that I can play a pretty convincing role
So I don't need you, I don't think I need you

Deny myself, deny my heart
Deny your hand, deny your help
and you offer me eternity
but why should I buy that?